I’m going to let you in on a little secret. The mommy in these photos doesn’t like herself much lately.
Truth be told, the thought of portraits of myself right now is terribly unappealing.
Daily in the mirror I see a mama who needs to lose 50 pounds, but would be thrilled with even 30 pounds. And what’s worse is I have the tools to lose the weight, but I sabotage myself with no willpower to say no to eating out and convenience. (Which is also a sabotage just saying that because some of the healthiest foods I can eat, and enjoy, take no time to prepare) And maybe deep down I am scared that I can’t do it, so I might as well go off plan anyway. Every month I take portraits with Annie I’m reminded how I haven’t shed her baby weight, OR her brother’s baby weight from 5 years ago. I’m reminded that I’m not one of those moms that bounces back to her once double digit weight.
I see a mama who can’t stand that her 30 year old skin could still pass for 15, and not in a good way. The only difference between my skin now and 15 years ago? More scarring.
I see a mama who wanted nothing more than to nurse her baby, but couldn’t. And feels sad and guilty daily about it.
But in these portraits I see none of that. Looking at these, taken in beautiful light, from all the right angles, I see the mama my babies see.
And that is what I need for all of clients to feel as well. Because I am proof that you can feel like you just aren’t currently at your best, but adore portraits of yourself with your sweet babies. And your babies need to know and see that love in photographs because that’s the mama they see every day. Please do not WAIT. I would be so sad if I waited until I was where I want to be to get in photos with Annie. As much of a struggle as it can be, I pick myself up, throw on some make up and get in front of my lens.
Because as much as I adore these TODAY, they will become that much more valuable in 6 months, 6 years, and in 60 years for Annie to have.
Jenny Cruger Photography specializes in newborn, baby, maternity, family, and child photography in Nashville, TN and surrounding areas including but not limited to Franklin, Brentwood, Spring Hill and Murfreesboro.